ONE OF MY MANY LESSONS OF 2019

My life is just that: Mine. This journey is personal and I must focus on being in alignment with Gods purpose for me by remaining selective of the energy I welcome in and ensuring all that I do is out of unconditional love.

What others perceive, so they believe. Although their perception is their reality, it is not that of my own. I cannot make another see my intentions because they will only see what they are open and willing to see. To take it a step further, they will only see what they are healed to see.

I cannot live my life worrying about someone else’s perception. I must remain true to myself and recognize that only another pure soul will understand my intentions. I appreciate that I am confident in saying what I mean and meaning what I say. If it is misunderstood, out of necessity, it will be discussed.

If someone is not ready to converse, that is okay and I must allow them time and space to become who God desires of them.

Remember:

You are in the right place at the right time for your growth at any moment of your life.

However, due to self care, if you are not within alignment of my energy I must bid you adieu.

I have found that it is important we learn to welcome endings just as we welcome beginnings — with a light heart and full of optimism. As the poem goes “people come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime”. It is possible that you may grow apart to grow together or even start off apart and then come together, but it is not your job to know which one until God delivers the message. You just have to keep growing within yourself.

And when He speaks to you: take heed. Understanding that everything in life is intentional.

NAH, I'M GOOD.

I am no longer committed to making you understand me.

When I was younger I had this really bad habit of wanting to have the last word with my Aunt in arguments or feeling the need to explain myself further when I recognized someone didn't understand me. For some reason (I now know it was for validation and a need to get my point across) I felt it was a necessary thing to make sure I was always completely understood. So much so, that if I found a rebuttal hours later, I'd revisit the conversation to ensure everything was clear.

That honestly took a toll on me. As I've grown through life, I have found that there are people who are genuinely committed to not understanding you. Not in a way that they do not want to know who you are, but in a way that they hold an expectation of you and unless you meet it, you're invaluable to them. At least your opinion is. So it's more of a projection.

Look at it like this: Overall we are here for a reason. We all have a purpose on Earth and so we all have an image of how things will be, ideally. So if I am a close-minded being, I have no ability to see you in any other light than the desirable light that either I have created for you or the you that is within that comfort zone you showed me when we first met because, well it didn't disrupt my image. That is if you wish to remain in my life.

However, an open-minded person will be able to accept you and see you in any light you show them Monday through Sunday, they are able to detach their tainted image of what life "should" be like with you in it, because honestly, what you have going on is your own.

So now I bask in my ability to be clear and concise with conversation. My capability to acknowledge when someone is not actually listening and being okay with it. I love that I am able to have conversation through confrontation because, I am committed to understanding people. I understand that overall we have our own issues separate from one another. That is really a large part in why or how we respond to things the way we do in this life.

I do believe this quality is difficult to come by, so I thank God that He has trusted me with it. But let's keep in my mind something new I have to grow through: expecting me in everyone else.

OOPS.

WALKING IN MY POWER

I've had a good day. A great day actually. Full of productivity, cleaning and signs from God that I am walking in my mission. We love to see it!

But as I continued about my day, moving into the outside world; Quite naturally I become susceptible to other energies. I am well aware that I am an empath, thus I have a tendency to absorb other peoples energies. Since I am more aware of this fact, I do shield myself from it as much as possible but that isn't always successful.

Back to my day. I went out to eat for hibachi with my cousin and of course the meal was delicious. What bothered me, however, was that the chef had a very timid energy. As if she were nervous or uncertain of her abilities and it just gave me an uneasy feeling. Anxiety if you will. I personally am far removed from any fear of who I am, so I have come to realize when I notice a trait in another that I used to allow hold me back, I get flustered.

Being that I am now in a light of walking in unconditional love, I intentionally work through this frustration with empathy and placing myself in that persons shoes. This doesn't completely take away the energy but it allows me to be present and recognize what triggers me.

I left behind timidity and watering down myself for others when I realized it didn't make me happy. That no matter what I did, it would never be enough. I began to notice that I wasn't even fond of those who I felt I had to pretend for and overall I had been relinquishing my power.

I have chosen to no longer be afraid that I am too much or not enough. I mean, who is it that even determines the measurement for these descriptions? Walking in my power is not easy. It is an everyday battle with myself, if I am being honest. But I acknowledge my feeling of fear and I do it anyway. I know who I am and I know who's I am. More than anything I know what I am capable of.

I found that by reducing myself to fit someone else's image, I relieved myself of the duties I had been sent to Earth to accomplish. I am unable to provide peace and joy to anyone else if I am not being my authentic self. Not to mention, why would I not be interested in knowing who I actually am. Being myself and believing in myself has created so much space for growth, love and pure understanding of my mission, which I am excited to complete!

When I notice the shift in my energy and that I am being triggered, I instantly replay the scene. Searching for where I saw the change and what I can do to steer clear of it next time.

It is important to allow yourself to react as it shows you where growth is necessary, but be sure to remain aware of how you react. Never step out of character, acknowledge what you need to work on and continue to walk in your power.

Remember:

Attitude is the key to life.